I have arrived

Reading blogs is what helped me get through it all. The infertility. The unexplained reasons why it wasnt working. The disappointment each month when it didn't work. The pain. The heartache. I felt for each of you when you experienced the same. Then the shock of a positive HPT. The disbelief when I saw the heartbeat for the first time - there really was a baby in there! The joy. The hope. The fear - please let this baby be OK after everything we have been through. The flutters. The kicks. The planning. The purchasing. The nervousness. The excitement. And finally, FINALLY... a beautiful baby.

I remember the first time I saw Jordyn for the first time. She was lifted over the "tent" placed over me during the c-section. A reddish-purple squirmy thing with a tuft of brown hair. I cried, thinking she was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Now I knew what all those other mothers felt. And I was so glad to finally be feeling the same thing.

My story isn't unlike yours. There has been a lot of sadness, and finally, so much happiness. Since reading blogs helped me get through it, I hope sharing my story will help someone else. We all need as much love and support as we can find, and sometimes its easier when its virtual.

I'll share more about myself, my wonderful husband, our beautiful daughter, my family and my life as this blog progresses.