Writer's Block

When I first started writing this blog, I wasn't sure what I wanted it to be. I wasn't sure who would read it or if they cared what I had to say. I was just so happy that my infertility journey came to an end, and I had a perfect baby girl as proof of all our hard work and wanted to share her. And maybe give hope to someone who felt like their journey was endless. If it worked for me, after 7 years of trying and a kidney transplant, it would surely work for someone else.

Lately, I've felt blocked. This year isn't anything I thought it would be. So much has happened, good and bad, and its left me feeling... well, blah. Sometimes I feel like I can't talk to anyone. I talk to N, and he is amazing, but writing has become my outlet. I've written other posts and deleted them, but I've decided to forge ahead. I have so much I want to say and I just need to get it out.

If you know me in real life, I will ask that you please don't comment or mention anything that I say on here from now on, unless its related to this blog. No posts on facebook, twitter, or conversations in person. If you are my friend, please don't discuss this with other friends. If you are my family, please don't discuss with other family members. This is the only place I will be able to let my thoughts and feelings out and some of the forthcoming information will be confidential. So please, lets keep it that way and leave it to this blog only.

Hell, aside from the 5 of you who I know read this, I don't know who else does anyway. But for my own sanity, I need to write, and in order to get unblocked I need to know its all going to stay here.

20 months

It is so hard to believe, but my little girl is 20 months old today. Before I know it, I will be planning her 2nd birthday party. I am amazed at how fast time flies when you have a baby - I am trying to savor every moment!

Jordyn has grown so much these last few months. She is talking up a storm and loves learning new things. She started "school" full time this week. Since November she has been going 2 times a week, but now she goes 5 days. It was too hard to keep her occupied at home while I was trying to work, and she absolutely loves school. It has been so good for her - she has learned so many new things and is really thriving there.

Here is a picture of her in front of the wheel of our Tahoe. N says this is how we will chart her growth since we live in Texas. Its all about how big you are compared to your large SUV!