Due Date

Well, it's here. Today was my official due date. Which means she would have been here by now. I should be cuddled up on my couch with a sleeping newborn baby girl. Instead I felt the joy of a 2.5 year old girl saying "hi mommy" when I walked in her room this morning, and squeezed her a little longer and tighter when she gave me a hug. I am so blessed to have her - she is my miracle baby. I am so lucky. My heart still hurts missing my other baby, but I am healing. I am better. I am still so, so grateful for the one little girl that I do have. And I just hope and pray that one day in the near future I will be able to have another sweet girl (or boy) call me mommy.